Y 12.18.2007Y
8:01 PM
And who told you that being an Unica hija is great?!Maybe for some, Yes.
But for me? Nooo. I don't think so.
Ever wonder why I haven’t posted any entry about my parents ever since I started blogging? Well it’s probably because I’m not so close to my parents when it comes to my personal life. I mean ye, we do hang out and catch up with each other. They ask me how’s school, what’s up with me and how I’ve been doing during the week. Then I usually answer them casually. Like, “okay lang. Hehe” Yun lang. Simple noh? We do converse during meals and joke around but then there’s this something in me. Naiilang talaga ako. We don’t talk about personal stuffs about me. Maybe I’m just uncomfortable with that kind of topic, and me, sharing it with them. Haha. I feel like I’m inside a box and I can’t show off the real “ME” whenever they’re around. I respect them but I must admit that sometimes I get too stubborn and I don’t listen to what the hell that they say. Hehe. Good girl! Tss.
No no. Don’t get me wrong. I’m the rebellious type who’ll slam the doors and scream at their faces everytime I get scolded by them. How the hell am I supposed to do that? I’m not even allowed to reason out or even explain my side. Personally, reasoning out doesn’t always mean that you’re answering them back in a harsh and bastos manner. Hey, you can still talk cool even if you’re reasoning out right? Agree? Haha. I do sometimes explain my side but still I’m the one who’s always wrong. Am I really? Or maybe they just couldn’t understand me?
Okay okay. My friends would always say that. “ Solong anak ka kasi. Intindihin mo na lang. Mahirap pero ganun talaga. “ I knooow right? Haha. I’m their only child for life and that’s already stuck on every vein that I have. My goodness. 16 na ako. I'm responsible enough! I know what’s good and bad, wrong and right and the true and false. Tss. They are soo effin strict. I mean c’moooon! No matter what I do, I’ll always go home to our house naman eh. Even on personal plans with my friends/blockmates I still have to ask for their permission and take note, they will have to agree first before I go out. Hehe. – Sa Cavite lang lakad ko. Hindi ako luluwas ng Maynila. Haha. Ang sarap sabihin na ganun eh. LOL. :D
But seriously, I get too ashamed whenever that happens. When I was still on my high school days, ang daming beses nangyari yun sakin. Ahaha. You know the feeling that all of your friends are allowed to go out and hit the malls then you, you can’t go with them coz you’re not allowed to? Gawd! It’s unbearable. Haha. Nakakahiya at the same time. Tss. I haven’t even experienced the so-called “sleep over” at your friend’s house in my whole entire life. Hehe. Okay. Jologs na ako and baduy. Haha. :D If only I already have the money, I swear I’m gonna leave our house. Haha. Wtf?! Unlucky. I don’t have my own money that’s why I’m staying here for the sake of my studies. Hehe. There’s no other choice left right? Hehe.
Yes, i'm an only child. But not the spoiled little brat who always gets what she wants. Never been. How i wish ganun na nga lang para i could say that swerte nga ang maging only child like what others say.
Honestly?
They have no idea what it's like..